'' Fond memories of my childhood'' [ 15 ]

‘’ Fond memories of my childhood ‘’ [ 15 ].

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’When the school reopened my brothers  and elder sister started going school .Again I was left alone. When my brother left for school I took out my toys and played peacefully.

A gain we shifted to an other place. When we went there  my grandma was there to look after my elders and by that time my eldest sister gave birth to a baby girl.Mum was  always busy looking after the two babies.

Though our house was a big one it was so crowded;with an other uncle ,pottanammachen, grandma and a maid servant and all.There was no out house and so the two constables on house duty;stayed late in the night and went home.

Our house was an isolated one ;around it there were small small palace buildings of
the royal family

.Just near our house there was  a palace and there was an old prince named Achamma thamburatti  as old as 95 years old;

could not hear at all.She had a hearing as big as  a husked coconut 

and a spout to insert into the ear.Next is an other palace.Our maid servant

used to go there, to wash clothes because the river was flowing nearby.When she went there to wash  clothes she used to take me also with her.The princess of that palace had eight boys and no girls.So she was fond of me and made me sit on her lap …gave me chips and fruits.Then she  went to the river and had a bath again because she had touched me.

Every morning my uncle took me and my brother to the temple and there we saw ,children from the palaces wearing  small dhothi with golden borders.

Through the transparency of the dhothi w e could see the gold chain around their waists.Uncle bought us also golden bordered small dhothi and I was so

Proud;because ,like the children of the palaces;I had gold chain around the waist ;that could be seen through the transparency of the dhothi.So also the temple going children wearing dhothi used a red ribbon like piece of cloth hooked in the waist chain in such a way to form an underwear.We also wore that ribbon like underwear. Then one day a gold smith came home ,and grandma took out my gold waist chain .I was hesitant to give it ,then she told me that he would make me a more beautiful one;.then she tied a black 

string around my waist.Every day I was waiting for the goldsmith to come, but he never came.But I noticed that my sister Rema and my sister’s baby wearing gold chain around their waists.

One day when we went to the temple we saw a lot of people gathered together and making thatched shed or pandal and decorating it with artificial flowers and hangings.Uncle told us that the festival of the temple was coming  shortly,.When the festival started ;every night dad used to go to the temple

By 8 or…8.30.spent more than an hour .Then he took me ,brother,sisters,and

mummy with him.There were a very big gathering around the temple .Every day during the festival time there were programs….like dance…;music concerts

drama..fire works and all ;outside the temple  compound wall ;and inside there were  a  nfumber ofleet of elephants and the deity of the temple mounted on the middle one...

…accompanied by panchavadyam and a number of lighted lamps.Inside and outside the temple tere were full of people.Because of the crowd there were police constables on duty.When they saw my dad they all rushed to him and saluted  him and they moved the crowd on either side and made a path for us to pass through..Then,everybody

 around ;looked us with much respect.Then I felt that I am somebody great.......

….that there is only one father in the world;….and he is mine.

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

'' Fond memories of my childhood''[14]

‘’  Fond memories of my childhood ‘’[ 14 ]

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

My eldest sister brought me a toy car, a monkey playing on a drum and a toy watch  also.For brother she brought a school bag,pencil set ,eraser,pen and a toy watch.He was very much interested in my toys and whenever I took it out he used to come and play with me.I  liked his company but did not like his rash handling of my toys.So I was hesitant to give him my toys.He was very cunning and  I was just a puppet dancing to his tunes.He said he had two ladybirds named Burma and Brotha.At night when everybody sleeps they came to him and he used to sit on their back

and fly around seeing places and visiting our relatives and friends.If I gave him

the monkey or toy car he said he would give me one of the ladybirds ;   then both of us could go to see our grand ma,sister,and all.Then I asked him to show me  me the ladybirds.   Then I wanted to see them.He took me aside ;pointed towards the sky and told ‘’ see ;Iam going to call them,I  will show you my ladybirds.’’

He asked me to close my eyes.When I closed my eyes he made a murmuring

sound and then asked me to look at the sky where  he had pointed out.When I

Looked at that point he immediately changed position and scolded me’’ where are you looking?…look at the point where I am showing you’’…’’ see…see..did you

see them ;must watch carefully..within seconds they will hide themselves behind the clouds.’’thus promising me one of the lady birds he snatched away my toys.He always had a superior feeling that he is a boy and older than me for four years.  

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

‘’ Fond Memories of my childhood ‘’ [ 13 ]

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

I spent most of the time ,lingering around the baby and mummy .One of these days I heard from Ammu aunty that my eldest sister was coming down from Singapore.She had gone to Singapore, with her husband, some three four years back.I could  hardly recollect her face ;but her husband’s face was not at all clear in my memory.Mummy used to tell me often that my  eldest sister who was coming from Singapore  was fond of me and looked after me nicely when mummy was ill.

One day Madhavan uncle and myself went to the railway station to bring my sister home.I was seeing a train for the first time,and  hence ,so excited

to see the long ,long compartments moving one after the other.It reminded me of a leach.Wile I was watching that I saw a fair lady waving her hand through the window.

Uncle holding my hand,…rushed to the spot where she had stepped down

Men wearing red uniforms brought her luggage and put it in a riksha .[.In those days there were only man pulling rikshaws .]We took an other rikshaw

and reached home.Everybody was very happy and they gave her a warm

welcome.The next day she opened her suitcases and distributed gifts to each and everyone.She gave me a box. When I opened it there was a doll with golden hair,blinking eyes wearing ,a frilled frock,She had,shoes and socks on toe. .Iwas so delighted to see the doll.So far I had not seen such a doll with hair ,dress and all.After a few days my grand ma ,my dad’s ma came home and my sister …

went with her to grandma’s home. Like my mum she also had a big tummy and I guessed that there was a baby inside.

My brother started discriminating me because all my cousins were boys ,and he liked to keep company with them, to climb trees, to catch small…small fishes

from the canals….to dive into the pond….and so on.When I went to them he used to say …''.go…go..away, and play with girls. We are boys ,we have to climb trees

jump into the ponds…swim and all.You girls are not supposed to do all these."

Then I felt an inferiority complex and started praying to god to change my sex.

I prayed  ‘’ Oh ,God ..Make me a boy  ‘’ And I started wearing my brother’s

Shorts and shirts believing that one day god will make me a boy.

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

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'' Fond memories of my childhood '' [12 ]

 Fond memories of my childhood[12 ]

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

My youngest uncle Raman was also fond of us and he bough us sweets whenever he went out.My uncles were athletes; elder uncle Madhavan pillai was a very famous  tennis player .,Every evening he went out wearing shorts and banyan

And a tennis racket in his hand;and the younger was a runner,.He also went with him  for his running practice. One evening two or three people brought him back.He looked weary and tired.They took him to his room and they stayed with him over night.He was advised to take complete rest .Madhavan uncle

stayed with him always…nursing him ..and we peeped through the door to know how he was getting on.Once when he saw me near the door he called me to

his side and patted on my back lovingly and said when he went out he would bring me sweets and a doll. The next night while Ammuaunty was helping us to do the home works we heard a sound of vomiting near the verandah .when we rushed to the verandah Raman uncle was vomiting blood.Everybody gathered around him,and they carried him to his room and we children were chased out and closed the door.After that we were not allowed to enter the room.We guessed that he was seriously ill and one morning when we got up , we saw

him being laid in front of a lighted lamp,fully covered with a shroud and everybody crying.I sat on Ammuaunty’s lap and wept.After some time, we children

and ladies were chased out to the next courtyard and through the window

we saw the people carrying him to the pyre at the corner of the compound.

After that every now and then his smiling face used to appear in my heart of hearts.

After a few months mummy became very weak and she looked weary   and tired. One night a stout lady wearing white saree and a tube like thing around

her neck,accompanied by an other lady wearing white and carrying a big bag

came home.They straitaway went to mummy’s room and closed the door.

Ammuaunty told me that I am going to get an younger brother…so..small.like a doll

I was so exited.Then .Then Ammuaunty asked me to get a name for him.Then I said ‘’let us give him Raman uncle’s name.’’.Then she put me

by her side …held me tightly and wept .After a while she told me’’now you sleep ,when you get up in the morning I will show you your baby brother.’’

 When I woke up in the morning she took me to mummy’s room and showed me the baby. Baby was so cute with rosy cheeks ,golden hair and red lips.He closed his eyes and sleeping.Only his face we could see…fully wrapped in a white flannel

.I felt like carrying him in my arms and hug…but the lady who was looking after mummy and the baby; did’nt allow me to touch.Ammuaunty took me away from ther and told that it was my baby sister.Then she asked me what name I’am going to give her.Immediately Raman uncle’s face came to my mind

And I said we will give Raman uncle’s name as we decided.She laughed aloud

And said ‘’it is a boy’s name…we must find out a girl’s name for her.I was adamant that the baby must be named after him. So she was named Rema.

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'' Fond memories of my childhood ''[11 ]

‘’ Fond memories of my child hood ‘’[ 11 ]

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

After this incident I was so scared to go near the wall to see the pedestrians and cyclists, thinking that the cats eyed cripple master may appear on the road at any moment.I used to spend my time playing with Neelandan and doing my  home works and teaching Neelandan the lessons the master taught me.By teaching him, for me, the lessons became thorough and always I got ‘good’

for my home works from the master.

After awhile my dad was transferred to another place.My mummy was happy that the transfer was to her home town.

One morning a bus came to our yard.Pottanammachen with the help of the constables and Sreedharan put all the luggage on the top of the bus.The constables, Pottanamachen and the elder brothers got into the bus and drove

On.By the next daybreak a car came to our house my mum dad sisters brother and myself got into the car and we drove on .By 10’O clock we reached home    where my mum was born and brought up.Two uncles two aunties and servants were there.We were hungry and so first of all we had break fast and then my brother and myself went around to see the house and surroundings.It was a very vast and aristocratic house with a very vast hall big enough  to conduct a marriage  and three courtyards  cellars,cow shed ,barn  of and all.The compound was very wide that we couldn't see the boundaries The compound was full with  wild plants and flowers ,like a flower bed fading out in the lake.My aunties took us to the lake shore every   evening .We collected  flowers and put it in the canals to see it flowing towards the lake We als,and collected small small stones and threw it far into the lake.We used to play like this till sunset.

Among the two aunties the elder auntie  named Ammu was very fond of me

When the cook Kesavan went for shopping she made  him  buy halve for me from the hotel ‘cheenan’s.’.There were no Chinese in the hotel,but

I don’t know why everybody called the hotel  ‘ chienan’s

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

''ആ കാ ശ ത്തിലെ പ റവ കള്‍''[ഒന്‍പത് ]

‘’ ആകാശത്തിലെ പറവകള്‍ ‘’[ ഒന്‍പതു ]name sheshambal

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

‘’എന്‍റെപേരു ശേഷാമ്പാള്‍ ‘’അവര്‍ അവരുടെ കഥ …ഇവിടെ ഈസ്നേഹ കുടിരത്തില്‍ എത്തിപെട്ടതിന്‍റെകഥ പറഞ്ഞു തുടങ്ങി .

‘’ മദ്രാസിലാണ് ഞാന്‍ ജനിച്ചു വളര്‍ന്നത്‌.അപ്പാ ആവിടെ ഒരു ചെറിയക്ഷേത്രത്തിലെപൂജാരി.അമ്മവുക്ക് മാല കെട്ട്.ക്ഷേത്രത്തിലെ

വരുമാനം കൊണ്ടും അമ്മ മാലകെട്ടി കിട്ടുന്നവരുമാനം കൊണ്ടും

ഒരുവിധം മുട്ടിയും മുഴുക്കതെയും ഞങ്ങള്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞു വന്നിരുന്ന കാലം .അടുത്തുള്ള ഒരു ലെയിന്‍ കെട്ടിടത്തില്‍ നാലഞ്ച് ചെറുപ്പകാര്‍താമസിച്ചിരുന്നു .അതിലൊരാള്‌ുമായിഞാന്‍പ്രണയ ത്തിലായി .പ്രണയംമൂത്തപ്പോള്‍ വീട്ടിലറിഞ്ഞു.എങ്ങിനെയുംവിവാഹം നടത്തികിട്ടാന്‍ വേണ്ടി അദ്ദേഹം ബ്രാഹ്മണനാണെന്നു കളവുപറഞ്ഞു.കല്യാണത്തിനുഅദ്ദേഹത്തിന്‍റെആള്‍ക്കാരായി നാലഞ്ചുങ്ങിനെ പേര്‍ മാത്രം വന്നു.കല്യാണശേഷം ഞങ്ങള്‍ നഗരത്തിന്‍റെ

മറ്റൊരുഭാഗത്തേക്ക്‌ വീട്മാറിപ്പോയി.അവിടെ അദ്ദേഹം ഒരു ഹോമിയോക്ളിന്നിക്ക് നടത്തിവന്നിരുന്നു.അങ്ങിനെ ഞങ്ങള്‍ ഒരുവിധം തട്ടിയും മുട്ടിയും ഒക്കെ കഴിഞ്ഞു വരുമ്പോള്‍ ഒരു ദിവസം അദ്ദേഹത്തിന്‍റെഅച്ഛന്‍ നാട്ടില്‍ നിന്നുംവന്നു .കല്ല്യനസമയത്തുവന്നഅച്ച്ചനയിരുന്നില്ല അത്.അദ്ദേഹം എന്‍റെഭര്‍ത്താവിനെമാറ്റിനിര്‍ത്തികുറേനേരം എന്തൊക്കെയോ സംസാരിച്ചു.അവരുടെ ഭാവഹാവാദികളില്‍നികുന്നുംഞാന്‍ മനസിലാ

ക്കി അച്ചന്‍ മകനേഎന്തോ പറഞ്ഞു നിര്‍ബന്ധിക്കുകയാണെന്ന് .

അടുത്ത ദിവസം അച്ചന്‍ മകനേയുംകൂടി നാട്ടിലേക്ക്‌പോയി .കുറച്ചുദിവസം കഴിഞ്ഞാണ് മടങ്ങിയെത്തിയത് .അപ്പോള്‍ ഞാന്‍ ചോദിച്ചു ‘’അന്ന് കല്ല്യാണത്തിനു വന്ന അച്ഛനോ അതോ ഇപ്പോള്‍ വന്നഅച്ഛഅച്ഛാനോ..ആരാ ശരിക്കും നിങ്ങളുടെയച്ചന്‍?.’’എന്ന് .

‘’ അന്ന് വന്നത് എന്‍റെവല്ല്യച്ച നാണ്.ഇനിഎന്താണ് നിനക്കറി യേണ്ടത്  ?’’ അദ്ദേഹം ചൊടിചു.

‘’’ അദ്ദേഹം ഇപ്പോള്‍ എന്തിനാണാവോ നിര്‍ബന്ധമായിപിടിച്ചു

കൊണ്ടുപോയത് ?’’ ‘’അതോ അതുവീട്ടില്‍ഒരു വിതം വയ്പ്പ് നട

ക്കുന്നു .അതിനു വേണ്ടിയാണ്.’’പിന്നീട്ഒരു മാസം കഴിഞ്ഞു നാട്ടിലേ

ക്കുപോയ ആള്‍വന്നത് ഓരു  മാസം കഴിഞ്ഞ്..പിന്നെ കൂടെ കൂടെ ഒരു പോക്കും .ഹോമിയോപ്രാക്ടിസെല്ലാം കുഴഞ്ഞു .വീട്ടില്‍ തീ പുകയുന്നത് വല്ലപ്പോഴും .ഞാന്‍ എന്‍റെ സഹോദരനെ കണ്ടു കാര്യം പറഞ്ഞു .എന്‍റെ സഹോദരന്‍ അദ്ദേഹത്തിന്‍റെനാട്ടില്‍പോയി

ഒരന്വേഷണംനടത്തിയിട്ടുവന്നു പറഞ്ഞ കാര്യങ്ങള്‍ ഞെട്ടിക്കുന്നതാ

യിരുന്നു.അദ്ദേഹം ബ്രഹ്മ്ണനല്ലെന്നുംഅച്ഛന്‍ വന്നു കൂട്ടിക്കോണ്ടുപോയത് ഈ ബന്ധം മറച്ചു വച്ച് വേറൊ രു വിവാഹം

കഴിപ്പിക്കാനായിരുന്നു എന്നും അങ്ങിനെ കിട്ടിയ പൊന്നും പണവും

കൊടുത്ത് സഹോദരിയെ കല്ല്യാണങ്കഴിപ്പിചെന്നും ഒക്കെയായിരുന്നു.

അദ്ദേഹം ഇവിടെ ഒരു വ്യാജ ഹോമിയോ ഡാക്ടര്‍ ആയിചികില്‍സ നടത്തിവരുകയായിരുന്നു.ഇടയ്ക്കിടെ യുള്ളനാട്ടില്‍

പോക്കും ഒക്കെയായപ്പോള്‍ പിന്നെ ചികില്‍സ തേടിയാരും വരാ തെയായി.അദ്ദേഹവും നാട്ടില്‍ നിന്നും അങ്ങിനെ വരാതെയായ

പ്പോള്‍ എന്‍റെ മകനേ കുട്ടികളില്ലാത്ത ഏട്ടന്‍ഏറ്റെടുത്തു.എന്നെ ഇവിടെ കൊണ്ട്ന്നാക്കി .ഇവിടുത്തെ ചിലവുകള്‍ ഏട്ടന്‍ തന്നെ

വഹിക്കുന്നു .

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’    .

''Fond memories of my childhood '' [ 10 ]

‘’ Fond memories of my childhood ‘’[ 10 ]

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The dried palm leaf balls and Bullock carts made out of jack tree leaves

reminded us of Kesavapilla and we missed him a lot. we were lingering here and there  had nothing to do …dad engaged a tuition master to give us tuition.Our maidservant’s son ,a small boy started coming with her.He was timid ,holding the tail end of her Saree and peeping through which,walking behind,like a frightened cat,went to the back side of the house.When she goes

for sweeping the yard he sat near the barn leaning against the wall and slept.

When we had brake fast  in the dining table sreedharan gave him   also on the floor.We took our plates and sat near him and watched him eating.He was so thin with high cheek bones ,very big ears and deep set shining eye balls.His front teeth were protruded,when he chew we could clearly see the movement of his cheek bones.His hands were thin and drooping from his shoulders,his tummy was expanded like a balloon.All together he had the look of a mouse,and hence we gave him a nick name “mouse”.At first he was scared and kept a distance ,slowly he started playing with us.His name was Neelakandan

When the school reopened;my brother started going school and I was left alone.,hence spent time always with Neelandan.One evening my brother and myself were standing near the compound wall.of our house and the compound was much much higher than the road ,and the wall from our side was hardly up to our chest; that we could see the passers by.While we were watching ,an old man was passing by wearing a shabby collarless white shirt with sleeves neither full nor half,his hair was knotted behind and formed a plug.His dhoti was just above his ankles,and he was lame.My brother asked me to call him crippled and ‘’cat’s eye .When he came near my brother sat under the wall and prompted me to call again and again . I called .He stopped walking  and looked at me angrily.Then I noticed that his eyes were yellowish like the eyes of a cat.After two three days while I was lingering alone in the house doing nothing,my dad asked Pottanammachen to admit me also in the school.I was very happy to go to school ,like everybody with new clothes bag books and everything.The constable also accompanied us.After admitting me there the constable went back but pottanammachen

Stayed back ,took me to the class room.When I entered the class room I saw that crippled and cat’s eye master sitting in front of the table; holding a cane in his hand.As soon as I entered he came to me ,stared at my eyes with clenched teeth.I started shivering with fear and sobbing .Pottanammachen felt pity on me ;pleaded with the master,and somehow brought me back.

‘’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’